January 1, 2003: HappyNew Year!! Time to get back on track with my diet. I have gotten a bit sidetracked the last couple months but now it's time to get back into it. I don't believe in New Year's resolutions so I will just say that it is time for me to "re-focus". Wish me luck!!



January 2, 2003: Okay, first full day of January went well...when I woke up yesterday morning, I weighed in at 182!! Ugh! My diet has gotten away from me in the last two months...shame on myself. I can't remember wanting something this bad in a long time and I seem to have been sabotaging myself lately. Anyway, I was at 26.5 points last night before bed (my point range is 20-25) and I drank enough water to choke a horse. I woke up this morning and my scale read 178. Of course, I could have just been retaining salt or something but I think I was retaining the bag of twelve chocolate truffles I had on New Year's Eve!! I am looking towards weighing 177 in the morning. I have to work tonight so I won't be snacking on the couch tonight. Please give me strength to make it through my son's birthday on Friday and strength to walk by his cake!!!



January 7, 2003: I had my first weigh in of the New Year yesterday and it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I gained 1.4 pounds and it put me back to 179.4 but I have to look at it like this: it wasn't 180. lol Seriously, I cleaned out my fridge, cleaned out the freezer and went grocery shopping. I bought the food that I was eating when I first started the diet and now I am looking forward to getting back on track. I woke up this morning and our scale said I weighed in at 176.5...pretty good considering on Sunday morning it was 182. Good grief, how did I do this? I was getting back into that old rut again, eating the wrong things and eating way too much of it. I had a little stomach bug yesterday so I didn't eat too much, which helped. Today, I have had two bananas and a Subway 6-inch sandwich for lunch. Supper is going to be small. Wish me luck in the morning.



January 9, 2003: Well, it's Thursday. I'm doing okay...still have a slight bellyache so I'm not eating too much because when I do, I cramp up. Ugh! It is snowing again here in Maine...don't get me wrong, I like snow. I like to snowmobile, it's pretty but holy crow! I think sixteen feet of it in one month is enough!! lol

January 9: 3pm: I have gotten in my water already today, which for me, is a miracle!! I have had 17 points out of 20-25 so I am ahead of the game. I have to work tonight until 1 so that means I won't be home snacking. I am determined to lose, not gain this week.



January 12, 2003: Good morning...hmmm, the big question I have to ask myself this morning, am I going to weigh in tomorrow or take the "no weigh" coupon again? Do I want to see another gain on my chart? Will it hurt me or harm me? I am having such a hard time of it. I don't want to quit, but I just can't get myself motivated. I will not quit...I am going to be like to postal service...through rain, sleet and snow. lol



January 13, 2003: Oh boy! I did it. I lost weight this week. Two whole pounds...I never thought I'd be so happy to lose 2 pounds in my life!! It puts me back on track. I just have to keep journaling this week and riding my exercise bike...yahoo!!



January 23, 2003: I made it through yesterday and journaled all day and stayed in my points and even got my water in. Considering it is 30 below zero here in Maine with the windchill, getting that water in was crucial for me. Choked it down!! I woke up yesterday at 179.5 and this morning I was 177.5 so I got rid of "something". Yea for me!! Of course, my "dear friend" showed up this morning so I'm feeling bloated. Just have to stay away from the chocolate and salt!! I am striving to stay on this track...I really have got to get back in gear. I was encouraged this morning.



January 27, 2003: Yeah, yeah, yeah. If you already looked at the chart on the front page, you know that I gained again this week. Ugh! I know what I am doing wrong...I know what I have to do to fix it, so why can't I???



January 31, 2003: I REALLY want spring to arrive! It is finally warming up (here in Maine, if it gets to 30 in Janaury, we dig out the shorts)...it is going to hit maybe 32 degrees today. Yea! :-) Anyway, woke up this morning and I was 177, again. Sheesh, 177 is my weight for the month. I just have to get motivated...how many times do you think I need to tell myself that before I acutally do it??